Well actually it's less than one month now. Yesterday was officially 1 month til our c-section date and tomorrow is exactly 4 weeks until we are holding Itty bitty in our arms. I really can't wait to see who he/she is, I am so ridiculously excited I can't even explain the feeling in words.
Now all the anxiety kicks in too, what do we need, what do we have and what has to wait until we know if Itty Bitty is a baby boy or a baby girl. We already have the 'gender neutral' stuff washed that we had from Jack but honestly it's not all that much. I have a list that I keep adding to of things we need like new bottle nipples (bottles themselves are in great shape still), burp cloths, diapers and things like that and then also a boy & girl list for Joe for when the baby is actually here so he can run out and get things that we will need at home while I am still in the hospital.
I am also having a little anxiety and maybe a little unnecessary mommy guilt about leaving my little man at home. I have never left or been away from him for more than a quick overnight trip that didn't even amount to a full 24 hours so I feel bad. Part of me feels bad because I am afraid he will hate me and think I am abandoning him and part of me is afraid that he will not miss me at all and maybe even not care that I am not there. Then at the same time I am excited for him that he will have Daddy all to himself for a few days and they will have that bonding time together. Joe has already said that he will bring him up to see me when ever I want him too so that is a little comforting, I'm just stressing over it unnecessarily right now I guess.
Tomorrow is another Dr. appt so we'll see how Itty Bitty is doing and then I guess I may possibly start going every week after this. So scary how close the end is but so exciting as well.
Oh, and maybe a new bump picture to add tomorrow :o)
xoxo,
Jaime
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